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By the pricking of my thumbs
Something wicked this way comes
By the pricking of my toes
Something wasted that way goes
By the pricking of my eyes
Something lovely this way flies
By the pricking of my hands
Something poisoned that way lands
By the pricking of my nose
Something shadowed this way flows
By the pricking of my knees
Something hooded that way flees
By the pricking of my lips
Something gently that way dips
By the pricking of my brows
Something heavy this way ploughs
By the pricking of my cheeks
Something wetly that way leaks
By the pricking of my jowls
Something hollow this way howls
By the pricking of my bones
Something hurtful that way moans
By the pricking of my nuts
Something turgid this way juts



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Guillotines are born hungry
Nooses are the open mouths of baby birds
Swords are made to be thirsty
And the cold teeth of guns just won’t stop chattering
The applause of coffin lids closing
Is cheering the percussion
Of metal stitching meat
The instruments that open wide
Their oven mouths
To bring the ash of one-way trips
To round the population down
The axe is blameless
But it still shines so seductively
Promising easy power
Pledging quick change
Flexing ancient muscles
And even older reasons
While beautiful days continue
And trees grow
Ashamed hands turn red with embarrassment
And blood
Puppeted into revolutions
They want no part of




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An upswerve into the soft belly of the moonwhale, fist up in protest,
deep into the guts of it. You can feel the wires past the slick bulletproof
kevlar mounds of the beast's tummy. You grab a handful, lock your hand,
and go limp. This is hitching a ride. This is neon in your mind becoming
a constant. The opposite of a piggyback. An underpull. A fishtow.


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He feels a deep transition churning in the belt of him. The anchored soul of him. His visor, helmet, fist and feet are ready for new sights, new sand, and new hair. It’s an unimagining. It’s a slate cleaning. When he is old and single, he will have pages and pages of ideas that he did not act upon. He will have acted on some of them but most of them will have been waiting for a time when he had the talent that never came. Like a crazy cat lady, he’ll be a crazy idea man. They will string-puppet him to the end of his days in an unavoidable, hazy way. They will be like sunglasses he can never take off.

What positive part of the human experience do you think you are permanently missing out on and will never experience?

He is wrapped in sailboats. The functional whetstone of him no longer has any knives to sharpen. He is walking through a silent canyon and has been for some time. He wouldn’t call this depression. He would call it a journey. He’s portaling through percentages. He is at a crossroads but he have been here for some time yet still, somehow, moving forward.

There is more grey in his beard but he can no longer see as far. The mousetrap is closing in slow motion. His jacket is made of thumbnails. His backpack is full of dead batteries. He is a bronze medal borrowed from a friend.

Like an old boxer with no one left to hit with his powerful, trained hands.



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another sprucing of an old piece

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It was a way of life down here to prove how far you were willing to go.

The stew of Oddtown. The people that lived here knew that they’d never work in a place that required a dress code let alone a mannered way of behaving. The modifications they had done to themselves were extreme.

There was work that a person could get done that was reversible. Horns, smaller tattoos, piercings, subdermal implants, that sort of thing.

Judge’s kids got those to show that they were rebelling against a society that they didn’t create. All tasteful and done in places that could be covered up by business suits and hairstyles in later life when they realized that their destiny was to be a benefit to society rather than a burden.

They took their little rebellious walk in the wilderness on Oddside. If they were lucky, they made it back out with a few ‘hardcore’ stories and some street cred with the other kids from rich families. Learned a few staring tricks for negotiations in the boardroom when they finally accepted Daddy or Mommy’s tuition and went to law school. Memories to make them think that they had a soul or had experienced ‘real life’ for at least a little bit.

If they were unlucky, they met up with the people that didn’t give a fuck about their parents or futures. A few shots of crackoin later, a few hours of video later, and few ransom demands later, a few brain burns later, and the little girls and boys from the rich side of town ended up in pieces amongst the garbage bags in the alleys. Either that or just stumbling around dead-eyed until they starved to death.

But the smart inhabitants of Oddside realized that these kids had money and would soon be running things. Becoming friends with these kids could be good down the road. Ever since the inheritance act was passed, the poor became poor forever and the rich angled with each other for more money. The gulf between the two societies became an uncrossable trench littered with the Icarus skeletons of people who tried.

It’s all about appearance.

Take Mannycentric, for instance. He had robotic, cherry-red fists the size of oil drums. His shoulders and biceps were grafted to take the weight. If he relaxed, his knuckles dragged on the ground. Those fists could knock chunks out of buildings when they were fully charged. They weren’t gloves. The birth-meat of his forearms and hands was long gone.

Killie had antlers and four hearts. Her scars and tattoos ran the gamut from tribal to baroque. Not much of her original skin still showed. Hundreds of small, scalloped shark fins inserted from her tailbone up to her shoulder blades turned her entire back into a cheese grater.

Flail had extra joints installed in his legs. He ran like a deer and leapt like a flea. He had the buttonhole pupils of a goat.

They were currently letting a blonde rich girl buy them drinks and impressing her with violent stories, watching her eyes grow wide, feeling her excitement growing. She obviously thought she had a wild streak and was ready for whatever the night threw at her. She was wrong. Manny, Flail and Killie had been promised a hundred credits to deliver her to the Skinner. They were just waiting for the roofies to take effect. If they didn’t need the money, they might have tried to make her a friend.

It was a way of life down here to prove how far you were willing to go.




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“I’ve been to space.” He says.

His wild blue eyes match the hue of the ass-baring paper dress he’s wearing. The plastic bracelet is a nice accessory.

We’re in the interview room in a small-town hospital. I’m a visiting federal psychiatrist. I’ve travelled to a lot of small towns to interview crazy folks who say they’ve been to space. I work for the government. It’s like being Fox Mulder from the X-Files except that it’s really, really boring.

The fourth floor of this hospital is for suicide risks and delusionals. Every single small town I go to, the people with the highest suicide risk are kept on the top floor. Every glance out the window must be like a dare to the patients here. I shake my head.

I feel the need to end this interview quickly. I’ve been doing this for ten years. Collating, recording, classifying, defining, and sifting nine kinds of bullshit for an ounce of truth. I’m like a prospector panning for reality. I’m tired.

“Okay. Prove it.” I say, giving this nutbag a little of the deadeye for wasting my time. That usually starts the list of elaborate excuses that ends up drawing the interview to a close.

“Alright.” He says, and holds his hands up. His brow crinkles in concentration. He’s clenching his jaw. He closes his eyes. He takes a deep breath and holds it.

Well, this does happen from time to time. I like it better than the stories. It’s a little entertaining. Eventually, the patients will express surprise that the transmitter installed in their fingernail is suddenly no longer there or that his or her powers don’t work in my presence.

It must be like a judge watching criminals lie or hit men watching the light go out of their target’s eyes. After a while, they must just sit back and enjoy it like I’m doing.

He grunts.

His hands shine bright blue and the room splashes with light. The walls turn semi-transparent and I can see the architectural structure of this entire hospital below and around me. I can see the wiring and the radiators showing up solid greenish-white like an x-ray of scissors in a stomach. I can see the skeletons of the doctors and patients milling around, bored on the night shift.

The man is front of me opens his eyes. They’re glowing green. He starts to hyperventilate. I can see his muscle fibers, capillaries, and bones, depending on which layer I concentrate on.

With a sigh, he slumps forward. Everything around us returns to being opaque. He is staring forth, drooling. He is a dead battery for the time being and I can’t blame him.

I found one. I need to bring him back and add him to the sixteen we already have.




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An unfortunate collection of thoughts had a car crash in my head yesterday.

ONE

Woman says “Put your whole hand in there, sailor.”
Man does as he’s told.
Woman says “Put your OTHER hand in there as well.”
Man does as he’d told, both inside of the woman as if to make a prayer.
Woman says “Now clap.”
Man struggles, fails, and says “I can’t!”
Woman says “Tight, eh?”

TWO

Tinkerbell’s near death experience in Peter Pan. She urges the witness to bring her back to life by believing in fairies. She wants the witness to demonstrate this belief by clapping. “Clap if you believe in faires! Clap if you believe in fairies!” she says, fading from this reality.

THREE

A person cannot go back and kill their own grandfather because if they did, they would make themselves not exist which would bring their grandfather back to life and then the grandson as well and then the grandson would go back in time to kill the grandfather again and, well, it would make a causality loop that would, quite possibly, short circuit the universe.

UNFORTUNATE CAR CRASH OF THOUGHTS

I’m picturing both of my hands wrist-deep in Tinkerbell’s tiny hoo-ha and she’s telling me to clap if I believe in fairies. When I can’t, she dies and disappears. However, that frees up my hands to clap and so she reappears, enveloping my hands again, restricting my clapping, and causing herself to disappear again, etc, etc. until she is a flickering, quantum hand-trap on the end of my arms.

So I’m caught in some sort of bizarre fairy-fisting causality death loop.

This moment brought to you by too much sushi during lunch and a rather unfortunate habit of trying to make sense of things and usually coming up with some far left of the sum of its parts.



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It’s as out of place as a howl in a mezzanine.
Sheet music in a birdcage.
Blood on a petal.
She seemed to just lack a certain bone of regret.

It’s a dream. I’m in my old house. In the kitchen. It’s night time but the lights are on. It looks unreal, somehow, but nothing’s out of place.

There’s a scuttling sound up near the ceiling of the yellow walls in the kitchen.

I look up. In the corner, lit by the harsh light, is a spider made of fingers. It’s got ten legs. It’s like two hands joined at the wrist and welded together. It looks horrifying. It looks like it would be warm and dry to the touch, just like regular hands. The wrongness of it is hard to define.

I close my eyes.

When I open them, there are thirty or so handspiders.

They’re crawling down the wall towards me. A few of them leap, horrifyingly nimble.

One of them hits the floor beside my bare feet. I bring my foot down hard on it. I feel a wriggling beneath my foot that feels like I’m standing on someone’s face. There’s a wetness that explodes and suddenly there are five smaller handspiders skittering out from underneath my feet. They are quicker than the larger ones.

I step on more of them as I run to my bedroom, the room that provides an illusion of safety.

They don’t respect that boundary. The come crawling into my bedroom, past the doorway. I can hear the thud of thumbs and fingertips as they gallop on the hardwood floors from the kitchen over to my room.

The fear I feel is visceral now. I have descended a few rungs down the evolutionary ladder into complete animal terror.

That’s when I hear her behind me.

She’s sitting on the floor of my room with her back against the wall. She’s an old friend. She’s looking around like she just arrived. Not startled, not scared, not confused, just looking around.

The handspiders rush past me to attack her. Their fingertips find the fabric of her dress and grab hold. Five handspiders are on her now, clumsily moving towards her face.

She looks down at them with astonishment. Then she smiles.

She thinks they’re cute. She laughs.

The handspiders turn to ash. Her laugh carries the weight of a sonic boom. It carries the weight of the shockwave of an atomic explosion to the handspiders.

Her laugh is no more than a familiar titter to me but the handspiders evaporate in a pulse outwards from her without time even to turn and flee. The ashes that are left dissipate in the air like dandelion seeds.

It’s as out of place as a bellboy in a forest.
Flowers in the hand of a monster.
A nest in a piano.
She seemed to just lack a certain knowledge of danger.



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“Cut the red wire”, he said. Turns out he was guessing and just wanted to look like he knew what he was doing. Bucking for a promotion. Well, he didn’t get it. I lost my hands and my face and a lot of the skin on the front of my upper torso.

They’ve done a great job of making the skin grafts look almost human but I still look like I’ve been manufactured instead of born. The skin doesn’t sweat, for instance, and it’s too thick. It’s one colour but it’s been painted to have the mottled look of every other human’s face. It’s something that you don’t really notice unless you’re missing it. Human faces are a riot of colour that always changes. Mine doesn’t.

It’s ironic that the hands I’ve been given are probably more graceful than the big mitts I used to have. I can play the piano now and the hands don’t get tired. It’s just a demo program that came with the installation. I only need to hold them in the right place over the keyboard.

They need batteries, though, and they make small little noises when they move.

It’s disconcerting to people. Kids think it’s cool but so far, no woman has really taken to me. I look at people with horrific scars from decades gone past and wonder how they ever got by but I’ve been working on a theory. I’m just as worse of as they were, regardless of recent technology.

People don’t shy away from the way a person looks with stuff like this because of their appearance. They shy away from the horrible moment in time that shaped the appearance. People who have the use of their legs, people who don’t have spectacular facial scarring, people who aren’t going to die soon, they don’t want to mingle with us ‘other side of the mirror’ people because of what we represent. We are living reminders that everything can change with one doctor’s appointment or some weak brakes or even a moment’s hesitation when crossing the street.

I look okay. I can pass for human in a dark room but I still don’t completely fool the eye and that’s the problem. It’s obvious that something hugely traumatic has happened to me.

I’ve noticed it as well in kids with emotional problems from a lifetime lived in a string of foster homes. People want nothing to do with them. Humans are still such animals inside with all the sharp senses that animals possess regardless of our attempts to blunt them. It’s obvious to us which people have suffered and we act like it’s contagious.

Not me. Not anymore. I’m on the other side and I have a lot of ‘me’ time now whether I want it or not. My friends are broken in society’s eyes and we have a great time. It’s like we’ve been given the keys to a different world. We are invisible most of the time as we walk down the street. I can see the suddenly averted glances out of the corner of my eye.

I think I’m going to start a church. Our Lady of Metal Hands. Only the pitiful and harmed need apply. I like that thought.

The phone rings. I put down the paintbrush and go to answer it.


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His hands fluttered like butterflies. He couldn’t hold a pen to write. He couldn’t hold on to a drink without spilling half of it before it got to his lips. The tremors were constant. Sure he had a substance abuse problem but I don’t think that was what gave him the shakes. His hands were creatures that were separate from him. They shook and cried and looked unhinged when he could not. Years of standing at attention and doing the jobs that he had been ordered to do kept him wound up tight and unable to lose control. His hands were the barometers of his inner state of mind that kept him from lying to the rest of the world.

His name was Jake. I met him and his hands in a bar in Texas with a lot of red. I had been falling for months. I guess you could say that I landed beside Jake since that’s when my memory kicks in and actually lasts for a while. His mother had just died. I’m not a preacher and I don’t believe in serendipity or providence but I’m willing to believe in coincidence. There was a moment when our eyes met and it was like we found each other. It was a moment that made all the talking we did afterwards just details.

In me he found a pupil. In him I found a job and a reason to stop drinking.

His hands stopped and were still like marble when he held the gun. I put the cash into bags in over two hundred stores. His military background worked for us and we were never caught.

I came into the hotel room in Virginia after we’d done almost a complete tour of the United States. He had sent me out to get some ice. He was dead when I came back to the room. He had a smile on what was left of his face. I almost expected his hands to still be shaking.

From the year that we’d spent together, I knew that I was his only family. I’m sitting in the waiting room of a funeral home now under an assumed name getting him cremated.

I think I’m done robbing. I have the money in the suitcase. His share, too. I have enough to rent a small place for a year and maybe get a job here.

It all feels perfect.


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